hell break loose
after weeks of teaching and workin in
chiltern hse, i have finally come to a conclusion
today that i DO NOT enjoy myself.
dun ask me why.
the children make me smile but they
make me wanna dig a hole and
stay in there 4ever too. i hate it! its
not fair for a 19 yr old lady to handle
such matters!
a supposed joyous day somehow ended off with
a wrong note and i simply
do not know how i am feeling right now.
books all over my room
and i do not know where to start my
work from. date due? TOMORROW.
i'm trying alright.
i need alcohol. i need sleeping pills.
i need my sayang.
i have not seen him all week!!!
no, let me rephrase,
i need to go shopping!!!
11:33 AM